Haven't dropped any crumbs for a long time...

Ello ello...
Been a while since I last bothered to drop a note in here, 'while' being the understatement of the year in this case.

So what has happened since then? I've left my job (not in the nicest way possible... what can I say? I'm an idiot). I've bummed around a fair bit. And I've taken a step into finding out what the hell is it that I intend to do with my life. More details about that later.

How many times have I repeated this cycle now? I get a sickening feeling just thinking about it. One of my best friends told me this today: "Jay, I really like you as a friend. But you better shape up."

I know that came from concern over what I am doing to myself. My reaction however was (silently in my head): "Is that an ultimatum?", "What if I don't shape up? Are you going to stop being my friend?". I've used these and variations of them before to shut my self down or to turn myself into a time bomb. Time to stop ticking...